For years now I have worked extremely hard trying to improve my life as a whole, both mentally and physically, and I truly struggled to get to where I wanted to be. I've never had great self esteem and definitely suffered from body dysmorphia.
Being extremely competitive and a severe perfectionist my motivation when I first started training came from hatred of my own body.
So I started doing my homework and researched and read everything I could get my hands on to try and find that "miracle" that would make me perfect. I tried almost everything that I thought made sense, eat this many calories, burn that many calories, eat clean, eat small meals, no sugar, watch your sodium...etc. Long story short I ended up with an eating disorder in which I was doing 1200 calories of cardio a day and an hour of weightlifting on top of an active job. Absolutely no rest days for fear of "getting fat".
And I would never allow myself more than 1000 calories a day and that was high. The scale became my life, and it was never low enough or good enough. This became so taxing that I began to binge on weekends to the point of making myself painfully sick, then the cycle would start again and I would restrict for weeks after out of guilt and to see that scale drop once again.
Physically I was never "skinny" enough and mentally I was a wreck. I then found RippedToShredz Fitness and it changed my entire life! It was an easy decision for me to reach out, and I was so excited and hopeful when Kalim began my fitness journey. For the first time I actually had a coach and a plan that was based on me as an individual, not the latest "fad" diet and exercise program... Someone actually listened to my goals and what my habits and schedules were like. From the first day I signed up I knew that this would be different, that this is what I needed to get me to where I wanted to be!
My transformation has been an incredible journey, one that has changed my life completely in all areas and continues to improve me physically and mentally everyday! Pictures may show the amazing improvements that I have seen in my physique, but the biggest improvement may be in what you cannot see... MENTALLY... Mentally I have done a complete 180 in how I think and feel! Thanks to Kalim and what he has taught me, I enjoy food again, I don't stress over what I can eat or how to burn it off. What he has taught me is sustainable, I am not depriving myself of anything that I love, I put in my work in the gym which includes rest days, and very little cardio and have become enjoyably obsessed with how strong I can get and how much more I can lift... My gains in strength and body composition have been so much more than I ever imagined. I continue to be amazed with what he and I together have been able to achieve.
It has driven me to push even harder to see just how far I can go in all aspects of my life! In 32 years I can honestly say he has been the biggest blessing in my life and the single greatest decision I've ever made!
- Laura -